Love is fragile.

And we are not always its best caretaker, but we tried and muddle through and do out best. Hoping that this fragile thing survives, against all odds.

(T)

无言以对

Boy: 忘了我吧 girl: 你知道世界上最痛苦是什么吗？那就是明明两个真心相爱的人却不能在一起。而你这句话就像利刀一样很恨地刺了一刀. 剧情落幕，我哭了。

Time wait for no man.

I wonder how many times must we forgive and forget, just because we don’t want to lose someone even though we know that they don’t deserve it.

Seriously, tumblr is really an inspirational site filled with things that we should/should have know in our life. How does it feel if you fast forward your time to 10 mins earlier and try to do something, It will change ur future. I wonder how many times must we tell ourself that ‘I’m fine, he just dont have the time. It’s alright, there’s another time’ but I know it will not come so soon. Keep asking the same question and keep getting the same reply. I’m not naggy, I just want to hear a different answer this time round.

Dreams.

Dreams are the one who make us realise about what we could not achieve in reality. But sometimes I really hate my dreams. Keep dreaming about tp and it makes me become more nervous and waking up before the time is up. I rather dream about dong dong because he made me realise why he couldn’t appear in my life. They said that if you dream about the person, it means that the person is missing you. It’s a lie right from the start because he don’t know me but I know him. It’s a lie because I believe that dreams happen because we keep thinking and hoping that it will happen but we know it neve will. 曰有所思夜有所梦

Ridiculous.

I find myself super ridiculous when I realise that I can only concentrate on my work when there’s no internet access that I can access to when I want to find places to procrasinate. I’m hopeless because switching off my internet access is good but … I still can use my phone to tweet,look and stuffs = No point. I’m a failure. Grh. I still cannot get over the fact that I failed my TP cause I mount kerb and without mount + strike, I would have pass. HAHA NO CHOICE. BUT I JUST LOVE TO NAG AND NAG. I don’t know why but I’m feeling very nervous for my next TP. zz which is still a long way to go…. HAHA. Anyway, It’s a good thing that I studied for Business Stats because I think I can get a pass? Hopefully. cause I don’t want to get another E again. –_ Two is enough. There’s SQPE and PMS left and I’m already looking forward to holidays. I got an A for SQPE previously but I doubt I can do it this time round because I didn’t really study that much? haha and I really don’t know what else to study, that time I only refer to 6Ps and Notes. Grh. I’m so dead. PMS also! I don’t know where to start and I got a D that time. Grh. I’m … Hopeless. Too many things on my mind. My complexion:( IT’S GETTING WORSE. PIMPLES. AND I’M NOT PUTTING MAKEUP ANYMORE.. SERIOUSLY. -PATONMYBACK- HOW TO FACE THE CROWD AND SCHOOL WITHOUT MAKEUP?! BUT I STILL SURVIVE. SIGH. PLEASE GET BETTER. MY SKIN CONDITION…. :( My TP. My results. Money… I WANT TO PASS AND GET MY DRIVING LICENCE !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! BUT I’M SO AFRAID THAT I WOULD LOSE MY SKILLS CAUSE I’M NOT GOING TO DRIVE FOR WEEKS OR EVEN MONTH?? I DON’T WANT TO FAIL AGAIN. I WANT TO HAVE THE SAME PERFORMANCE BUT PERFORM BETTER. PLEASE GOD PLEASE. :( OMG SO DEPRESSED. AND MY BF FOREVER NO TIME FOR ME. WHY OH WHY. MY LUCK NEEDS TO GET BETTER AFTER THE NEW YEAR. BLESS ME TO PASS MY TP BEFORE MY BIRTHDAY. PLEASE.TP TP TP TP TP TP TP TP

DISSAPOINTING.

I think I just dissapointed my whole family and my boyfriend who has high expectations on me. I actually thought that I could do it too, it’s the first time …. I mount kerb. I didn’t have issues with this when I’m doing warm-ups,practices and all. And it’s vertical parking… seriously. Not parallel parking. Fml. I’m going to give myself another shot the next TP. I can do it!!! go so now, I should concentrate on my Uts and my ut 3 that’s coming up next next next!!!! I can do it!!!

情侣吵架基本心理路线

1.因为男人的某种言行，女人很生气；2.男人开始解释，心想：用得着这么大惊小怪吗？ 3.女人不断试图强调不是事情本身，而是男人的态度；4.男人想：又开始翻旧账有完没完，女人想：现在的男人怎么这样不负责任；5.两人忘记了为啥吵架了但谁也不愿意先服软。

Judgemental creatures

Actually I don’t know If this is part of growing up, I just feel that I’m exposed to too much things that I don’t know how to handle it one by one. I just let everything fall down on me.

Now with this situation, I feel even depressed with myself. I’m always the girl with no confidence and now I’m worse. Not putting make up and still have so many pimples and acne and with white patch all over is making me feel even worse. How to be confidence when I’m all alone, I’m so afraid people will use judgmental eyes to look at me.. I keep asking myself, why me? Why must it be me? Then I realise that maybe god is jealous that I have the world’s best parents and my family, and he want to make me feel confidence, he want me to use my character to make friends, he want me to go through all these cause he knew that I need to be trained to be tough. But why me? Why my face? If selina can go through all that. I can too. The first thing is to ignore others comment on me.

You are suppose to make me feel better. But why are you making it worse? Is this part of a test? Sometimes I really hate it when you make decisions for me without asking. Am I changing? Or have we changed? Too much worries on my mind. When was the last time we truly enjoyed being together? I can’t remember. It must be long ago.

“父母的笑容，是世界上最美的風景”

Day one of applying the cream. Cried on the way to school because I was feeling helpless because I got no one to turn to, talked to samantha about it and send a long text to joyce and I think God asked rafiqa to text me out of a sudden and I talked to her too. Feel good when there’s people who are here for me. Daddy’s friend texted me the whole morning to keep my mood in a perk condition and I’m very glad about it. I need to be good and strong and be positive cause I need all these to give me strength and courage to pull it through this tough fact. Joyce told me that ‘ those who doesn’t mind matters, those who mind doesn’t matter’ I think that it’s true. And i realise that somehow when I need someone there, You always can’t make some time for me. haha I really love my parents. They meant the world to me.