Judgemental creatures
by weiting
Actually I don’t know If this is part of growing up, I just feel that I’m exposed to too much things that I don’t know how to handle it one by one. I just let everything fall down on me.
Now with this situation, I feel even depressed with myself. I’m always the girl with no confidence and now I’m worse. Not putting make up and still have so many pimples and acne and with white patch all over is making me feel even worse. How to be confidence when I’m all alone, I’m so afraid people will use judgmental eyes to look at me.. I keep asking myself, why me? Why must it be me? Then I realise that maybe god is jealous that I have the world’s best parents and my family, and he want to make me feel confidence, he want me to use my character to make friends, he want me to go through all these cause he knew that I need to be trained to be tough. But why me? Why my face? If selina can go through all that. I can too. The first thing is to ignore others comment on me.
You are suppose to make me feel better. But why are you making it worse? Is this part of a test? Sometimes I really hate it when you make decisions for me without asking. Am I changing? Or have we changed? Too much worries on my mind. When was the last time we truly enjoyed being together? I can’t remember. It must be long ago.
